once again, i fall into my feminine ways.
n
If you live your life with one person only, one day they’ll be gone or you’ll be gone. And one of you will be left all alone in the cold world. The family we are born in eventually vanishes. By then, you’ve created your own family if you’re lucky. First, you have to choose the person you’ll build this family with and stick to it as much as possible. How many tries do you get before you strike out? When my mother died just a few hours before the end, she looked into my eyes and she had the expression of a little girl who didn’t know what was happening to her. The same as when Lulu was born. Something totally pure. So I guess, we can do all the growing up we can, in the end, at the core, we stay the same. But before that sad ending that awaits all of us, maybe we can share beautiful, ephemeral moments with the people we love.
2 days in new york
n
She’s sensitive, too. Takes to hurt the way water takes to paper.
Ana Iris once asked me if I loved him and I told her about the lights in my old home in the capital, how they flickered and you never knew if they would go out or not. You put down your things and you waited and couldn’t do anything really until the lights decided. This, I told her, is how I feel.
m
Let go of time. Let go of complaint. And be grateful for all things.
n